The Other Side

So I spent the day in our SF store today, hanging out with the boys on Divisadero and raping the place for all their sundered goodies. Thanks to Eric for being so great and helpful in restocking us from their coffers of goodies. They do have a good vibe there, after all this time, and the guys really seem to jive well together. Seems like a nice place to be; I just love that perfect blend of geeky and cool. We might be wankers, but we’re good wankers. I completely realize that I’ve had a dream job for the past decade, and though it’s been floating around in my head for quite a while now, I’m absolutely sure that I want to come back to this company after my degree is complete and open up another Gamescape for Bob. But therein lies the conflict:

Is it possible to carry on a career as a history professor, or to at least work for a doctorate and publish while managing and taking care of one of the hottest retail game stores on the West Coast? Seems like a lot of work, eh? I did my BA while working full time, though, and I rather enjoyed the respite that one granted from the other. But it seems the time has come to really choose the path that I’m going to go down, for the long run. One should follow his passion, and I have two. And I know that I could do either and be happy, and do well in them. It’s like I have a great job waiting for me when I get back from Scotland that I’m already established in and that pays very well. I’m totally fortunate and feel so blessed, and I am so aware and appreciative of this. Most people are lucky to find one thing they love to do and make some money doing it. I have a couple of them.

There might be a degree of fame and satisfaction waiting for me on the tenure track of academia, and though being successful to me is purely a product of comfort and pride in my work, the gaming world has also always offered me a sort of recognition that makes me feel good about myself and my abilities. I can win painting awards, teach dozens of kids about strategy, history, and art, be on the cutting edge of the industry, and schmooze with reckless abandon and love every minute of it; meeting great people all around and living the envy of gamers everywhere. Or I can ruminate in a book-laden study, prowl ancient archives, researching the intricacies of historical cultures and our inextricable links to them today. Find new connections in old tomes and treasures and make affirmations on the affairs of peoples and places past. And that is equally enthralling. I want it all, and I feel that I can try for both.

Okay, enough. It’s strange to unload so much “me” stuff, but I guess it is my journal…

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2 Responses to “The Other Side”

  1. agntprovocateur Says:
    June 11th, 2003 at 3:25 pm

    btw, lil raven wants to learn to play magic. she's 7. i've never played it so, i might have a lot of questions for you.

  2. FunkyPlaid Says:
    June 11th, 2003 at 6:39 pm

    Chrissakes;
    Magic, eh? The new 8th Edition will be coming out at the end of the month, and there should be a starter set that'll be just perfect for her. And ask away, I'm always available, even if the game should be registered as an addictive narcotic.

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