And Off We Go Again.

It’s somewhat embarrassing for me to somehow expect people to follow the things I write here when I’ve been such a miserable correspondent for the past half a year. The routines that we easily make – especially when liberally dosed with avoidance shame – only serve to cement the patterns silently affirmed by non-action. There’s always something to fill the hole of what you intended to do. But that’s my only apology, even though it is a genuine one.

What I notice with certainty is that not writing anything at all is no good for me. It creates a barrier of understanding for and of myself, and keeps me out of touch with the gentle parts of my ego and the ferocious elements of my id that guide important and mundane choices every day. Though sometimes I feel that I should lose that privilege if I don’t scour each RSS and post from thirteen different services that my loved ones use, I know that the truth has nothing to do with not wanting to know. It’s simply that I’m over-stimulated and underestimating my own need for contact with myself. People have been writing in journals for centuries, and yet my imagined debt has dried the ink in a very fine collection of pens. Nevermind, there is too much to do that doesn’t need to involve apologia ad infinitum.

I’m throwing this out there, in the last hours before our departure, that this morning sees the triumphant shuttling of myself and cygnoir to Scotland. For me, it’s a yearly trip – one that I always look forward to, dream about, waggle my fingers in excitement of. For her, it’s a desperately-needed vacation – she’s not had a proper one in two years and her current job is extremely high-stress and massively demanding. For us, it’s a very important earmark, for many, many reasons. Suffice it to say that we’ve both been waiting a very long time for this trip, and, while it’s a bit shorter than we would have liked this first time, splendid things are planned all along the way.

There’s no doubt that I often feel pangs from being away from the place. This time, I’m overwhelmingly moved at the prospect of seeing my friends there again. There will be plenty of time to tour and walk and point and marvel, but my craving this year is really just to spend quiet time with those amazingly dear folk who mean so much to me, who are in my daily thoughts, even so far away. I know that my traveling companion will be beside herself with wonder and purpose, as I was the first time. She must be daunted at the thought of going to this place which I cannot stop lauding, of seeing our future patterns and the city I wish to grow old in. But she is a seasoned traveller, sure and open to everything, and I’m extremely thankful that after five years of wishing, we finally get to see my second home together.

We leave this afternoon, and will arrive in Glasgow around 1:30 on Friday. We’ll be sequestered in Saddell Castle for the weekend before nabbing a car and heading north. Inverness by the 15th, Aberdeen by the 18th, and Edina on Monday the 21st. Back home on the 25th. If you’re around and in the mood to catch up, please do let me know. We’ll have access to e-mail the way through, and our phones will work for calls and texts. Mine is, as always, 1 (415) 990 7415.

We’ve set up a multi-media trip blog at Tumblr, if you’d like to follow what we’re doing and seeing in Scotland. I continue to sincerely hope that all is well with you and yours. The fall, season of crackly leaves and pumpkin spice, is here, and it’s our favorite time of the year.

15 Responses to “And Off We Go Again.”

  1. fraulein_doktor Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 11:34 am

    Have a safe journey.
    xox

  2. verdandiweaves Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 11:35 am

    Sadell Castle was the first place Seolta and I took a holiday together.

  3. kynon Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 11:39 am

    Safe trip – hopefully catch up with you guys when you are in the Aberdeen area!

  4. purpledonna Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 12:03 pm

    <font color="9400d3">Have a safe journey and if im free i shall endeavour to pop into the Brass Monkey to see if you are around 🙂 </font color>

  5. scotis_man Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 12:15 pm

    Safe travels and have a wonderful time.

  6. pisica Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 3:13 pm

    I got in touch with La Cygnoir about possibly meeting up (the four of us) – hope to cross paths with you guys.

  7. podle Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 3:58 pm

    Its lovely to read your writing again and, of course, a gracious fooey to apologies. I hope you and the divine cygnoir have a lovely and wonderful time. Safe and happy travels.

  8. steel_bonnet Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 4:05 pm

    Shall be in town then- let me know (prob easiest via Paul B) when you are in the Brunky.

  9. anonymouseth Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 4:30 pm

    fuck .. wait .. that's *this* weekend?
    damnit…
    😛

  10. sleepycinderell Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 4:35 pm

    You shoulda told me about the chance of a castle!

  11. velvetdahlia Says:
    October 9th, 2008 at 11:55 pm

    Sounds like a wonderful trip. Sorry I won't be able to make it up. Now that I'm a working stiff it's harder to just travel on a whim…not like I did a lot of that before but the possibility was there!
    I will have to check out Tumblr…not sure I know what that is!

  12. FunkyPlaid Says:
    October 21st, 2008 at 1:17 am

    I'll need to catch up with your working exploits right away – I've been a bad journal-reader lately and must atone. Congrats to you on the new job!

  13. no_mans_land Says:
    October 10th, 2008 at 2:25 am

    I miss you, Darren ! I thought of you when I was printing out my reference sheet the other day (you are still listed).
    I didn't realize you had a ladyfriend. How wonderful. It seems all of my friends are in love. 🙂
    I will let you know the next time I plan a trip to SF.
    Take care !

  14. alison_ella Says:
    October 10th, 2008 at 2:41 am

    Yeah looking forward to seeing you. Let me know me you are in Edinburgh and I will make my way through to see you, and get a long awaited hug.
    xx

  15. FunkyPlaid Says:
    October 21st, 2008 at 1:18 am

    Great to hear from you, Sarah, and thanks for the kind words. SF is waiting for you whenever you'd like to come down. Would love to hear more about how you're doing since the Portland move.

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